Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Poem – Loss of Hope for the Future

depression

Dark hole, increasing depression

Continuing pain and suppression

Life never getting any easier

Facing it only getting harder

Daydreaming and fantasy

Of people who love me

Kindness, gentleness and caring

Only there, love they are sharing

Love only exists in my dreams

Not deserved for real, it seems

Never deserved it to be shown

Real love, never known

I am only barely existing

Not remotely thriving

Of love and hope, my life is empty

I wish life had ended, before I was twenty

Whatever I do is wrong

Continuing sad song

Sad lyrics never ending

Shame and guilt consuming

Numbness keeps me safe

What I must do, I cannot face

No hope for it to get better

Loss of all hope, for the future

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~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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