Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Really depressed.

I have stuff going on in my life now I am not coping with. I have stuff from my past I am still not coping with. I now feel like I have hurt my counsellor and I know this will make me shut down and not talk. Because I don’t want to hurt anyone.

Any little thing pushes me too far, and I am having big issues – security wise – with PayPal and my GoFundMe account that I have tried to fix and can’t. So I either continue with those issues as a problem, or I close down the fund – which looks really shady and is not what I want to do, because I want all that kept very transparent.

It doesn’t matter how hard I try, life continues to be too hard and it never gets easier.

I am spending more and more time living in day dream world, dissociated, numb and I don’t have any hope for things to get better, and that is not a good place to be in.

I am trying to get through each day, and it is getting harder and harder.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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