Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Instead of focussing on what I don’t have, I will try to focus on what I do have.

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I don’t have a lot of things I need and I do deserve. A decent family of origin, a trustworthy decent husband, a counsellor, support.

What I do have, is my children and Jesus. And I love them. And I know they love me.

I have a huge amount of grieving that I am still doing and the list got longer. And that is all normal and needed for someone who has lived my life.

I also have my children’s future, their growth, their happiness, their lives to help build and much love to give them.

I have Jesus and although I crave a human adult to love me and I know I don’t have that and probably never will, I do have Jesus’ love and I have to pray for Him to be all I need.

I’m going to make a sign, and put it by my bed. Like an affirmation I can read every morning – of my love for my children and Jesus and their love for me.

I will make it enough. And have gratitude for this.

Whilst also allowing this painful grieving process I know I am in and will continue all my life.

I will make all the little moments with my children and being as good a mum as I can be, and the times I spend with Jesus….enough.

And try to be content with what I do have, and not focussed on all I don’t.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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  1. luverley
    March 25, 2015 at 4:31 am

    I do really try hard to support you lilly and will always. but because of the trust issues you have it is hard for people who are genuine to get through. And it is a computer. I get that to. It’s just sad and hard and makes me cry because I do want to help. Hugs.