Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Back, neck and shoulder muscle pain is so bad, I am booking a massage.

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I’ve suffered with muscle pain for as long as I can remember and it became a lot worse over the last 3-4 years, since all the PTSD worsened and having so much trauma and emotional pain to deal with.

I’m aware my muscle pain is ‘muscle armouring’ – a form of trauma induced body hypervigilance and fibromyalgia and I have all the pressure points as points of considerable pain, related to FMS.

Whenever I have an increase in even more anxiety and stress, the muscle pain increases. I am dealing with too much stress, anxiety, depression etc at the moment. And my body is letting me know this.

It is at the level now where even doing some yoga is too painful. Every morning I am so stiff and walk/hobble  around like an old woman. The pain is continual, worsening and adding to all the other crap I am dealing with.

I used to have fortnightly massages which did help and I stopped about 6 months ago, when my massage lady stopped providing massage due to her pregnancy.

But, I am going to have to find someone and start having them again. So, I am in the process of booking one. I can’t really afford it, but I have to consider it as health needs/costs.

My body feels like I am an old woman. And in pain.

I realise my body is suffering too.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “Back, neck and shoulder muscle pain is so bad, I am booking a massage.

  1. You definitely deserve it. I deal with this too as we are always so tense. Hugs