Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I don’t want to ‘do’ today, so going to try and sleep all day.


Today is too hard already.

My children are now at school and I am home alone, so going to try to sleep all day until I have to pick my children back up.

Sleeping and even facing having bad dreams, is a less horrible alternative to the emotions and thoughts I will have all day. I can tell I won’t be able to block them out. So sleeping will avoid having to feel them.

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It is a truly dire situation, where I prefer nightmares, to the reality of my life while awake.

But, that is where I am at.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

2 thoughts on “I don’t want to ‘do’ today, so going to try and sleep all day.

  1. I feel that way sometimes too, like wake me up when everything is better.

    But, I find when I wake up its still sitting there waiting for me, anxiety, fear, grief, and it sits there with an ugly grin…as if saying “hello, I am still here.”

    I use worship music and walks to help me through those times. I honestly have to force myself to walk forward and not let the emotions, or lack of, win. Sometimes I win, sometimes fear wins, but everyday is a new day and a day closer to healing.

    You are unique, there is only one you. The world is a better place because you are in it. I know, because you are a mom and you are your children’s world. The advantage your kids have is they have a mom who knows what hurts and she will protect them from it.

    Its OK to have those days, just don’t stay there, my friend. Find one good thing, no matter how hard you have to look for it, and meditate on it.

    You are not alone, it just feels that way sometimes. There are many of us out here that are going through it too. We know and we understand. Huggs

  2. You aren’t alone lil. I don’t want to adult today either. Hugs