Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

It’s Good Friday & social media is awash with God hating words. And I know I need to ignore it.

I can’t look at it anymore today. So many people have such hatred for God, and yet that anger needs to be directed at humans, not God.

I’ve never blamed God for all the harm caused to me. I did go through a stage of deep hurt that He didn’t intervene and stop what happened to me as a child. I felt like this was like the ultimate betrayal, of Him just watching and doing nothing. That was before I understood free will and how He doesn’t want a single second of hurt and harm to be caused by his creations, to each other.

It is ‘people’ who cause harm and suffering to each other. Not God.

And Jesus died on the cross, to stand up against all evil…… not to save the select few…… as too many church people want to believe.

Jesus died on the cross, as a cosmological deliverance from evil. The amazing N.T.Wright speaks of this very eloquently.

There is nothing that I could ever do, to thank Jesus enough.

I will, however, avoid all this hatred I am seeing on social media. I will not act on this need I have to defend Him – by arguing back at these hate filled people.

Because, I know Jesus is telling me to leave it alone, ‘it’s not my shit’ to deal with and leave it with Him.

I know He wants me to just focus on Him, on my own life, my children and the people within my life, because I am barely coping with that.

I am talking with my children about the real meaning of Easter, which they do know, but having conversations and prayer with them, and telling them about how much Jesus loves them.

This is what I need to focus on for Easter.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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