I am going through some pretty highly emotional and challenging stuff at the moment. *sigh.
My childhood and intense emotions I have not dealt with.
Painful grieving at the realisation of how severely my whole life has been affected by my childhood.
Issues in counselling.
Issues in my marriage.
Volunteering and being around new people – and all their many differing issues/needs.
Parents at my youngest son’s school wanting to get together, today I had an invite to a high tea on Friday.
Both the volunteering and parents stuff – increasing anxiety considerably, but I have pushed myself to do it for several reasons, including not continuing to be isolated.
And trying to post info on my page etc to help others.
Plus, increasing exhaustion and pain in my body…. I am now having blood tests for to see if it is something like Rheumatoid Arthritis, Lupus, Chronic Fatigue etc. And I know there is something wrong, as I am now hobbling like an old woman every morning, and even yoga is now too painful to do.
Plus, trying to be a decent parent to two noisy, energetic boys and deal with 13 year old hormones.
I am completely overwhelmed.
Emotionally, psychologically, physically overwhelmed.