I am aware, and struggling to deal with the amount and severity of the abuse I endured by my mother. Even the last post here, re-blogged from another writer, highlighting how parentification abuse alone is deeply damaging, is so overwhelming. I am also aware, that abuse is not all I endured. Far from.
Without even thinking about it in depth, the abuse types I endured include…
Parentification abuse – severely damaging
Scapegoating abuse – described by Pete Walker as the worst childhood emotional abuse that can be endured
Sexually exploited by her to be abused by predators – severely damaging
Emotional abuse – such as blaming, shaming, rejecting when I was suicidal and deeming me a drama queen, attention seeker as a teenager
Verbal abuse – constant put downs, name calling, allowing other family members to verbally abuse me.
Severe neglect – in many profoundly damaging ways.
I don’t want to write anymore………. already I can feel the tightness in my chest,the pain rising that I cannot cope with. Continue reading