A post to my page about one area discussed today at counselling. It surprised me, to have my emotions and their intensity validated.
My counsellor confirmed today, how the level of intensity of the emotions needed to be felt about intentional abuse caused …… needs to be a true reflection of the level of the severity of the abuse caused ….. in order to process the deeper aspects of the trauma.
So basically, the more severe the trauma/abuse, the greater the level of intensity of disgust, anger, hurt, betrayal etc….. the greater the intensity of those emotions needed to be felt.
So, for those who have… endured considerable ongoing abuse and trauma and the abuse was intentional and deliberate, these intense emotions, are absolutely valid, and needed.
It was very helpful and validating for me to hear this today.
And so I am sharing this with others, to help validate anyone who has endured complex trauma and is feeling intense emotions, or like me – know they are there – but struggling to deal with them.
And to not allow anyone to invalidate this, or say intense emotions are wrong…. as they are not.
I also discussed my fear of allowing those intense emotions to be felt. For various reasons, including fear of the pain, fear of not coping, fear of ending up suicidal, fear of turning into an angry person….
And how my brain just switches off, to zone out whenever these intense emotions start to be felt. And why.
I also stated that when your start to deal with all the reality of all this severe trauma and how intentional it was and the reality of how profoundly it has affected your entire life, with the courage it takes to face this …. the pain is more intense.
It is easier to live in denial, suppression, avoidance, minimizing, rationalising.
But when you are no longer able to deal with it that way……. and you have no choice but to face the truth, it hurts so much more.
That was confirmed as correct too.