I’m aware of all the reasons, that the truth is needed, to deal with trauma.
I realise unless you confront it, fully, it stays within you and subconsciously harms you.
But, I am also aware, the truth can destroy you.
Knowing the truth about the first 20 years of my life, is more than can handle. It’s more than I can bear.
Every layer of truth, devastates and destroys me a bit more.
My suicidal thoughts are increasing.
I have no-one I can reach out to. No-one I trust.
I need this pain to stop.