Loss, grief, abandonment, hurt, withdrawing.

Ending counselling is painful. I feel that fear in my chest continually. I keep crying. And then I feel numb and very depressed.

I know abandonment depression is a symptom of Complex PTSD and the loss of any significant relationship, is so hard.

I didn’t sleep at all last night, so I’m running on a deficit of strength. I just want to curl up and cry for hours. Which I probably will again tonight, when my children and husband are in bed.

Psychopathy is the the No1 Health Crisis. As per an expert in Public Pathology Education.

The reason psychopaths, narcissists & sociopaths are the No1 health crisis, are because they destroy millions of lives.

60 million victims in just the US alone, are being harmed by psychopaths.

Lack of conscience, lack of remorse, lack of empathy are prevalent in all these highly abusive types.

And they do destroy lives.

Dr Robert Hare – the leading psychopath expert, even admits how many times he himself has been fooled by psychopaths.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_D._Hare

Just shows how if the leading experts admit they are fooled, just how many counsellors and mental health professionals will be fooled. As well as all the victims.

These people hide well amongst us, as per Dr Robert Hare.

All narcissists, sociopaths and psychopaths are predators. What they do, is not by accident. It is intentional and they target people.

Taking a break from social media.

I need a break from my Facebook page. I need a break from social media issues. It is emotionally draining and not a safe place to be, especially when feeling low.

I’m currently dealing with some of the worst parts of my trauma history and now without professional support.

I know I am struggling because my sleep is really bad. Two nights ago I resorted to taking Seroquel to sleep and last night I didn’t sleep at all. I was still awake when my kids got up at 6.30 am.

So, removing one area that is emotional draining from my life, to have better self care is needed.

Hoping this book will help me deal with this current stage of my journey.

Healing Your Emotional Self: A Powerful Program to Help You Raise Your Self-Esteem, Quiet Your Inner Critic, and Overcome Your Shame – Beverly Engel

http://www.amazon.com/Healing-Your-Emotional-Self-Self-Esteem/dp/0470127783/ref=pd_sim_14_7?ie=UTF8&refRID=111VBQ2GMW2ZK8YX6WDF

Healing Your Emotional Self “Emotionally abusive parents are indeed toxic parents, and they cause significant damage to their children’s self-esteem, self-image, and body image. In this remarkable book, Beverly Engel shares her powerful Mirror Therapy program for helping adult survivors to overcome their shame and self-criticism, become more compassionate and accepting of themselves, and create a more positive self-image.

I strongly recommend it for anyone who was abused or neglected as a child.” –Susan Forward, Ph.D., author of Toxic Parents “In this book, Beverly Engel documents the wide range of psychological abuses that so many children experience in growing up. Her case examples and personal accounts are poignant and powerful reminders that as adults, many of us are still limited by the defenses we formed when trying to protect ourselves in the face of the painful circumstances we found ourselves in as children.