The reality of my counselling ending, has started to really sink in. So many emotions, grieving, sadness, annoyance at myself for trusting someone…. all things that I feel deeply.
I’ve realised more than ever over the last few weeks, just how agenda driven, self serving and unaware of this within themselves, so many people are. Several situations have arisen lately, that have shown this so clearly.
My trust issues have kind of shifted, from a deep fear of trusting people…. to a deep awareness of how little people can actually be trusted.
Even though my counselling over the last 3 years has never been perfect and has always had red flags and issues crop up…. I think just having it there…. still felt like some kind of support.
And for a long time I clung onto it. Desperately. Like you do when you are drowning and it’s the only life support you have, to keep you alive. Continue reading