Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


The ongoing pain & grieving, due to the ongoing consequences, of all the childhood sexual trauma.


I am sat with tears flooding down my face as I write this.

When I write posts, like my last one, where I have to face and acknowledge that some issues caused by the severe childhood trauma I endured, are still ongoing, it hurts. It hurts deeply.

There are wounds that prolonged childhood sexual abuse cause, that child sexual abuse grooming by paedophiles/predators cause, that still affect my life in truly profound ways. And to know my own mother was complicit and exploited me, is beyond painful. Continue reading

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Sexual Intimacy After Childhood Sexual Abuse, Complex Trauma & Severe Neglect


This article is excellent and does raise important and very difficult issues – childhood complex trauma, child sexual abuse and severe childhood neglect survivors can face with sexual intimacy.

I’ve personally given up on this issue. I don’t have what I need in my life in terms of support to address my huge issues with this. My issues with this run so deep and I realise I need specialised support and I don’t have it. And I do understand those who have similar issues with lack of support to deal with this, can find this too hard to deal with.

But, I do believe for many others, there is hope with the right support and healing that come from that support.


Karma is a cognitive distortion of ‘magical thinking’.

I have known for a long time that karma is BS. I’ve known this since studying Buddhism and being confused and then coming to the conclusion that karma was BS.

Now I see that in psychology terms, karma is nothing more than magical thinking.

This keeps happening to me. I ‘know’ something, I know it’s wrong, I know it’s a cognitive distortion, but don’t have psychology wording and understanding to put to it.

I often instinctively know things and work them out for myself as being irrational thinking, and then find out later I was correct and how.


“There is no logical or rational basis behind the concept of Karma”. Continue reading

Confirmation Bias…. another cognitive distortion/behaviour I see clearly occurring. A lot.

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Boy, do I see this occurring a lot.

I see it within religion, within the mental health advocacy/industry, abuse advocacy.

People only want to believe what they want to see, that supports what they choose to believe, no matter how unhealthy, how incorrect, or lacking in evidence to support it.


Closely related to ‘cherry picking’ fallacy. Another cognitive distortion I see everywhere.


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Actual abuse like ongoing physical or sexual abuse to a child, causes profound fear.

Actual abuse caused to a child’s body, should not be minimized, or compared to witnessing abuse.

The fear of ongoing abuse caused to a child’s body, causes considerable fear.

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Physical abuse and sexual abuse, are also emotional/mental/psychological abuse and neglect.

The child not only fears it happening again, but knows what the abuse feels like and is having their body violated.

There are people minimizing this, by suggesting a child witnessing abuse only – is worse than a child actually enduring the abuse. Which is absolute rubbish and a complete minimization of a child enduring abuse to their own body. Such a lack of empathy for children enduring their body being violated. Continue reading

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Another example of religious abuse, including child sexual abuse, incest, physical abuse being covered up/condoned/enabled.

Praise God for the Royal Commission.

Again another religious organisation being exposed for the all too frequent abuse that goes on.

And this is common throughout religion, not just JW’s.

The Royal Commission has exposed abuse occurring throughout nearly all denominations.


‘‘Ministerial servant’ held in high regard by congregation while assaulting daughters.

While the rest of the Jehovah’s Witness branch held her father in high regard as a “ministerial servant”, he was flogging her at home until she bled and had sex with her and three of her sisters, the commission was told.

His second eldest daughter, now aged 47, said that when she tried to kill herself over the abuse, she was chastised by the church because it was seen as being a sin against Jehovah – while her father was stood down for some time but then accepted back with open arms by the congregation.

During one meeting with church elders, the woman said her father accused her of seducing him.” Continue reading


Spiritual abuse causes considerable harm & PTSD / Complex PTSD. Something not talked about much, but should be.

Spiritual abuse is rampant and causes considerable mental health issues, including PTSD and Complex PTSD, along with depression, anxiety and suicide.

Not many are talking about this, but I will.

I am aware of how rampant spiritual/religious abuse is, and the effects of it. Which of course, most church people choose to ignore, or minimize, justify, rationalise – and all those other cognitive distortions many church people have.

I understand the devastating effects of spiritual abuse, the amount of abuse occurring within religion, along with child abuse, domestic violence, child sexual abuse and all the emotional/psychological/mental abuse that pervades religion.

I’ve been attacked by ‘church people’, for raising this issue. Further abuse. Continue reading

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Children Who Suffer Early Trauma, Do Not Just ‘Get Over It’. Excellent article.


The terms ‘get over it’ and ‘move on’ etc are highly inappropriate, lacking in trauma knowledge, and re-traumatising. And this applies to a lot of trauma, but far more so for children who experience abuse, child abuse, child sexual abuse, domestic violence, etc.

The child’s brain is not fully formed, and the continual fear and trauma, programs a child’s brain for fear and this does not stop once the child becomes an adult.

If the child does not receive support, counselling etc, this will worsen the child’s prognosis for any recovery.

The child also does not have the same capacity to cope with trauma, as an adult. And cannot seek help the same way an adult can, especially when growing in toxic home.

This will impact any recovery in adulthood, especially if the prolonged child trauma survivor, does not seek help until decades later. Often suppressing the trauma, until later in life. As I did, and then having a breakdown.

I am glad to see greater research and understanding of this continually within the trauma/abuse field. Continue reading

Sadly, a lot of shame/stigma about PTSD & abuse, is caused by sufferers, advocates & those in the mental health industry.

I am certainly seeing a huge amount of stigma created by those who have suffered abuse and those with PTSD.

I am also increasingly seeing stigma and shame created within the mental health profession/industry itself.

And from advocates, who often only care about their own needs/experience.

I am not okay with this and will keep doing what I can to help bring awareness to this.

People who don’t ‘think’ deeply enough, or only care about their own needs/situation and don’t see outside of that, often cause a lot of stigma and damage.

I see cognitive distortions and self serving needs, everywhere. I can only do my little part to help raise awareness of all this.

And I know I will continue to receive opposition and resentment along the way. Continue reading