There is a famous quote… “There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside of you.” Maya Angelo
I understand the quote and the damage and consequences, of bearing an untold story within. Especially if it about abuse, neglect and trauma. I understand and see many of the psychological consequences of unresolved trauma. I see it everywhere. Society is full of it.
But, dealing with the reality and truth of my life and the past and ongoing consequences of the trauma I have endured, is greater agony, for me.
My past has affected too many areas of my life and continues to. Areas I cannot talk about. Not in counselling. Not with anyone. Dealing with that reality, is agony. It was easier when I didn’t understand all this.
August 31, 2015 at 12:31 pm
I hear what you are saying. I also believe what you are saying is exactly what Maya meant–that the agony of that untold story–not because it is untold, but because it is unspeakable and perhaps we are not even sure how to tell ourselves the story of what happened. I am sorry for your pain. I wish healing and peace into your soul!
August 31, 2015 at 4:05 pm
Yes, I see what you are saying and thank you for your message and kind words.
I do believe trauma needs to be dealt with in full and not kept inside. That is the only way to begin to heal.
But, I also see and feel how deeply painful it can be, when you do understand the depth of the abuse and the truth and reality of it all. I see why some people don’t survive this process.
The agony of the truth, can be worse than suppression and denial of not dealing with it.
❤