Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Delighted with a gift of a cubic metre of garden mulch :)

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I’ve never been someone who needs materialistic gifts, or grandiose offerings. I don’t need or want expensive jewellery. I don’t want money wasted on items that won’t last, or are meaningless to me. I don’t need or want grandiose offerings.

I’ve never chosen gold jewellery, preferring silver. I would happily wear fake diamonds, I don’t want real ones. I do not want to follow the sheep and ‘have to have’ the latest xyz. I don’t wear brand clothing. I don’t care about fashion, or whatever is the latest, newest trend. To me, it’s all a waste of money. We don’t waste money on bought shop cards. I’m happy and content to have a cheap meal out to celebrate an anniversary and would prefer that, to some flash restaurant. I buy cheap clothes and cheap jewellery and love op-shopping.

And it’s not because I am tight with money. I am a really giving person, who loves to think of thoughtful gifts for others. I gave two plants to a friend the other day, because I know she loves plants and is new at gardening like myself. I choose to consider thoughtful gifts. I’m often giving stuff away to people who need it more. I also love to give my time, heart, energy and thought, to people, as this matters more than materialistic items. I also donate fortnightly to charities and want volunteer. There are many ways to ‘give’ to others.

There is a lot I have never really needed, that I have always known for me is meaningless. I want it even less now. I want the more thoughtful, bigger picture, deeper stuff.

I don’t ‘need’ ‘stuff’ to boost my self esteem, or to validate my identity, or worth. And I do not care about image or what others think of me, in terms of shallow focusses.

I was delighted when my husband ordered a cubic square metre of mulch for my garden beds yesterday. It will help my gardens to be as lovely as they can be. It will save on watering. It looks nicer. And I’m happier to look at beautiful flowers, than I am about caring what I look like. And being water wise, is needed where we live.

I loved my garden mulch gift! 🙂

Even my husband remarked recently how ‘low maintenance’ and undemanding I am.

I do know, this is all about increasing maturity and wisdom, as to where to focus. As to what is necessary in life, and what is not. What is needed to increase a meaningful life, and what is heading in the wrong direction, down the wrong path.

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “Delighted with a gift of a cubic metre of garden mulch :)

  1. From the “” Brain and Research Center: Early Life Stress- Impact on Brain Circuitry.”.. On YouTtube. I try to educate myself, so I no longer need validation from Ignorant ,Uneducated People