Before becoming very ill a few years back, I enjoyed baking for my family and lots of different craft, sewing etc. When I become ill, surviving was my greatest need each day and getting through to the end of the day alive.
I’ve had spurts of doing some craft along the way over the last few years, but nothing sustained, or regular. And baking pretty much became an occasional activity. That’s okay, I had severe and serious trauma issues to be dealing with. Severe grieving and emotional pain, is debilitating.
Over the last few months, however, I have been mindful of wanting to start baking again and steering my family back towards a healthier diet. Today, I am going out to purchase baking items I need to get back into the swing.
I’ll take it slowly as I know not to overwhelm myself with anything. I will concentrate on baking healthy savoury muffins, healthy oat slices, healthy banana bread etc, that can be used for lunchboxes, my husbands work lunches, and as afternoon snacks. Plus I’d like to make some extras that my husband can take into work for all his cop friends, to help support them.
I’ve dusted off the sewing machine again and plan to make some ‘easy to sew’ summer items. I need some curtains in my bedroom.
I hope this will all become more regular activities, as they were several years back.
It’s interesting already balancing being a parent/wife, home duties, volunteering, socialising, meeting new people, hydrotherapy, writing my book, gardening and now adding baking and more craft into the mix. I’ve realised how much I have healed, as I no longer have those obsessional ‘all or nothing’ behaviours, that have featured heavily in my life.
I also realise I still have chronic illnesses. I get tired very easily, I get pain, I still have sleep issues etc, so must be careful. Only do what I can do, when I can do it. And prioritise which can be left, when unable to do it all.
But, I am glad to start to live a more normal life again.
There is hope of healing and coming through this journey.