Grieving hurts and that’s okay. It’s a natural, normal emotional need to deal with the end of relationships or situations.
I’m aware I will keep grieving for a long time. I’ve done enough research to know how grieving works. And to not suppress it. It will come and go and has already lessoned in severity and I can manage it better.
I’ve sent a message to a psychologist specialising in PTSD and trauma, to see if she is taking any clients. I realise it will be beneficial for me to continue talking about the grieving etc. I am a resourceful, insightful person, who knows my own self needs. I am aware of my inner strength and courage, I need no validation of that, but it still helps to talk it through. Even if I only have monthly or fortnightly appointments with a professional, that’s okay, as I’ve done all the trauma processing myself, about the past. And I’ve specifically chosen a non church person psychologist, as I don’t want any religious beliefs projected onto me.
The sun is shining, my teenage son gave me a huge hug this morning, I’m sat listening to my 6 year old giggling as he plays. My gardens are looking beautiful. I have some good people in my life. I am safe.
Life is good, even when part of it hurts.
It will be okay and life goes on.