Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Resigned acceptance of knowing a part of me, will always be alone.


My first counsellor told me no-one can be trusted 100%. It was a shock to me then, because trust and honesty are two things I had been searching for in others my entire life, until that point. This being due to the highly toxic environment I was raised in, where I was very alone.

Despite still subconsciously wanting to trust people and trying to do that over the last few years, I do now know 100%, no-one can be trusted. The only person I can trust and rely on, is myself. And I only need myself to trust.

It’s been a process, consolidated by recent events, that have led to me to this resigned acceptance.

It’s sad, but I am someone who wants to deal in reality. And the reality for me is, without trust there is no safety. Without safety, I cannot get close, or share my most inner thoughts/needs. It very much keeps a part of who I am, alone.

But, alone is something I am used to and have also resigned myself to being.

And life goes on.


Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “Resigned acceptance of knowing a part of me, will always be alone.

  1. Me too. I totally get the trust thing. It’s so hard when is been broken so many times.