Lessons about who you support on social media.

Last year, I was supporting a person who claimed to be a survivor of paedophile abuse. I had connected with this person on Twitter and blogged about this person and shared many posts. Those blog posts have now been deleted.

More recently, it has come to light this person may in fact be a paedophile. And there are many on Twitter, sharing info that is deeply concerning.

And I am aware of the lengths paedophiles will go to, to access vulnerable people. I am aware of the depths of manipulation they go to, to groom people and how they can very successful and how driven they are at this. It was odd to me, this person used to tweet to known paedophiles, albeit to apparently let them know, he was ‘on to’ them. I don’t know if any of the accusations are correct, but it is enough info, to make me know to stay well away.

This person, plus all those involved in the continual bickering and abusive posting continually going on based in the UK, have all been blocked from my Twitter. I have better boundaries now, than to be involved.

It has made me think about what I post and to be very wary of posting and sharing social media posts, about individual people, who I do not know. And therefore, do not have any real awareness of who they really are.

Dreams, can symbolise where we are at, in the healing journey.

I have a range of different types of dreams and have done since being a child.

Some are of the PTSD flashback type, of trauma that happened. They are f***ing horrendous. Thankfully they are lessoning. Some are dreams that are trauma related. They are pretty shit too. And I always have vivid dreams about people now in my life. People that matter and are significant. They can be really bloody weird!

My brain never stops, day and night, working to excess.

My recent dreams being experienced about my mother, and her death, I have come to decide are just my absolute understanding, that she was never a mother. I believe the dreams signify my final resigned acceptance of reality, no matter how painful.

I see the dreams being about death, being the symbolism of the death of a relationship, that never even existed in the way should have. They are not about the physical death of that person.

Never diminish yourself, for those who refuse to grow – Lilly Hope Lucario

This is a beautiful iris growing in my garden.

It reminds me of growth, and how beautiful growth is.

And how others may try to diminish that growth. Or some diminish their own growth, for others and feel that beauty should not be seen. Which is wrong.

I validate how painful it is, to grieve a stolen childhood, filled with severe ongoing abuse, fear and neglect.

http://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/#!complex-ptsd–grieving/c1ze1

Pete Walker explains grieving childhood complex trauma, so well. Pete will always be a special person in my life, as he voiced words I needed to hear and had never heard from anyone else. I am so thankful he gave me permission to use his work, to help reach others.

Grieving childhood complex trauma, is a lifelong journey.

8 Types Of Toxic Patterns In Mother-Daughter Relationships – Peg Streep, Psychology Today Article

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/tech-support/201502/8-types-toxic-patterns-in-mother-daughter-relationships?utm_source=FacebookPost&utm_medium=FBPost&utm_campaign=FBPost

This article focusses on emotional abuse, toxic and disordered mothers inflict on their daughters.

It is sad when you read through insightful articles, and realise you are ticking all the types of toxic behaviours and as you go down the list.

It is important the ‘parentification’ (role reversed) abuse, is highlighted as not commonly known or talked about. It is a deep form of neglect and abuse, rarely understood.

My mother is a deeply toxic, disordered, sick, unwell, intentionally abusive woman. And I have no guilt in saying that anymore. There were more abusive behaviours from my mother, than detailed in this article.

And it is needed to be understood – other types of abuse can cause even greater damage, like physical abuse and sexual abuse/sexual exploitation and often to far greater depths, because they are combined with this emotional abuse.

It is an act of self compassion and healing, to state and know the truth. As only then can you begin to truly heal and grieve.