Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

My sleeping…. shit this last few weeks.

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I’m doing everything I should be. Self care. Boundaries. Less time on the internet. Upped my exercise. Eating better. Socialising with calm, mature people. Gardening. Yoga.

Should be working well you would think…

Nope…….. my sleeping, is shit. My mood is low, often.

Two nights this week, with less than 2 hours sleep. Other nights I do sleep, I’m having bizarre trauma related dreams. It’s truly shit.

I know why. And I know I’m avoiding it. I’m avoiding dealing with some stuff, because the pain is too overwhelming. So it’s messing with my head, messing with my sleep. But, I see no resolution to the problems. No other way to deal with it that makes it any better or easier to cope with.

Sometimes, the reality of the most painful stuff…. there is no easy way to cope with it. You can’t make shit stuff any better than what it is… shit. You just have to let it be what it is. But, the consequences, keep occurring.

Like shit sleep.

(I’m really tired, hence the overuse of the word ‘shit’).

Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “My sleeping…. shit this last few weeks.

  1. Have you tried Twin Labs vitamin B1 ? take just one ……and twin labs magnesium take 2 at night