Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


Total confusion, anxiety, freakin’ hives… The issue of church.

After writing a post about how I do not want to go to church, due to the levels of unhealthy and harmful BS spouted by too many…. now I am considering it. *Shakes head in disbelief.

Why? Because my 13 year old has asked me (again) when are we going to church, and how he wants to go to a youth group.

This is obviously an issue I really need to deal with, as several things have come up in the last week, about this very topic I would much rather avoid. I know I would rather not have to face this dilemma. If I didn’t have kids, I wouldn’t be facing this dilemma. Oh how much easier that would be….

My confusion now, is the deep need I have to protect my children, and also the understanding that maybe my son needs a church community and a hopefully safe youth group. Whichever decision I make, I could be doing the wrong thing. And doing the wrong thing by my children, and them getting hurt, is not a situation I consider lightly.

In fact, it scares the shit out of me. But tackle this issue I must, because Continue reading