I do believe there is healing from complex trauma. It takes a massive amount of courage, dedication, effort and doing everything that is needed.
There are many complex layers, to healing complex trauma. I have been peeling away those layers, and tackling every one of them. Every wound. Every set of deep consequences of the wounds/abuse.
I have gone to counselling, at times dragging myself, at times truly wishing I could just give up instead.
But, I didn’t give up, I kept going. I still keep going.
I have devoted considerable time over the last 4 years, to researching and finding out everything I can about complex trauma. Read masses. Applied every tiny bit of my deep levels of resourcefulness, to finding out everything I need to know and do. And I knew I needed to find out from all the experts. I knew not to trust my own insight only, and to seek professional and wise advice. And I’ve learned so much and healed so much in the process.
I’ve had to be honest and face truly painful things done to me. I’ve had to be honest about what needed to change within me. Like boundaries, balance, self care, maladaptive coping habits, unhealthy thinking. And faced it all. Which takes huge levels of courage.
And I am proud of myself and all I have made choices to do. To heal. And share all I learn, to help others.
I know I have more to heal, but I have healed so much already.
So, my journey, is one of HOPE.