Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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The good & not so good, of new medication.

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I have chronic insomnia, and have had it since being a child. It is my ‘normal’ to not sleep well. All part of the PTSD/Complex PTSD, I have had all my life.

I either cannot go to sleep for hours, or if I do get to sleep at a decent time, I wake up really early.

It is a regular issue to have only 4-5 hours sleep. I have had periods of time where it gets better for a few weeks, but the insomnia always returns.

Recently, the insomnia has worsened considerably, and I discussed with my doctor/counsellor, the different medications available.

So, I am currently on Endep (Amitriptyline) – which is good for insomnia, muscle pain and hives. Dealing with three chronic issues I have, sounds like a great plan.

Two side effects I am having at the moment are dizziness and increased appetite. I keep having blackouts. And I want to eat – all day long!

Yesterday, I fell on the stairs due the dizziness, and have really hurt my butt. I fell backwards (which was better than forwards), and banged down onto one of the stairs and banged the top of my butt, against the next step up. Have a big bruise now. And it’s really sore.

And I am really hungry. Like starving, all day. I see why people put on weight easily on this medication.

I discussed these side effects with my doctor (this was prior to falling on the stairs), who checked my blood pressure, which seemed fine.

So I was advised to not get up quickly. So far, I have remembered to not get up quickly…. ummmm …. zero times. My memory for things like this, is crap. And so the dizziness continues.

I was also advised to ‘not give in to the hunger’. So I don’t put on weight. Methinks my doctor/counsellor believes my will power is far better than it actually is! I need someone to follow me around, slapping food out of my hands. It will be a miracle if I don’t put on weight.

But, on a positive note…. I am sleeping better, I have no hives at all, and apart from the very sore butt from falling, my usual back/shoulder/neck pain is not as bad as it was.

I do wish medications did not have shitty side effects. But, if the positive outweighs the negative, then I guess it’s worth taking them.

For once I wish….. 😉

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “The good & not so good, of new medication.

  1. I also take the product. here it is called LIMBITROL 1/2 amitriptyline, 1/2 ELEVIL ( elevil is an Antidepressant) I take it at 6 pm or 7 pm . every day.

    Not a good idea to just take amitriptyline by itself, because it is a Depressant.
    I take it at 6pm or 7pm , because of the Half Life. If I take it later at night, I am groggy the next day.

    Been taking it for years. WORKS. even tho it is an older antidepressant, it has the least side effects and least dangerous. I take the higher dosage, and it has been life saving for me.

    Because of the antidepressant effect it does not make you tired Immediately.

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