Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Not my circus, not my monkeys…

I increasingly understand the wisdom of this quote. There will always be many circus’s. And many ringleaders in the centre. And many monkeys surrounding the ringleader.

Hopefully some of the monkeys work out the motivation of the ring leader (narcissists), and step away, to be monkeys no more. But, if they choose to stay monkeys, that is their problem. Not mine.

We all make choices in life. Now mine are far healthier. I can figure out the ringleaders and the monkeys far quicker now. And get out of the circus, far quicker. And stay away.



Really thankful for new friendships.

I am really enjoying the new friendships I have formed. I enjoy walking and chatting, having coffee and slowly building new friendships with mature and easy going women.

It feels good to be staying away from chaos. And being far more discerning in where and who I form friendships with.

Having boundaries, is proving continually how different life can be. By staying away from those who create chaos and unhealthy, immature people, life is easier.

I value these new friendships, as well as the ongoing friendships I have.

When you realise how needed boundaries are, and how no longer tolerating toxic, or unhealthy, or gossip loving, or manipulative etc, it does indeed improve wellbeing…. life improves. Continue reading

Healthy boundaries here, as well as on social media.

Healthy boundaries, are needed on social media. As I learned from considerable experience. A lack of boundaries, leaves the door open for unhealthy people.

Healthy boundaries, are also needed on blogs. For the same reasons.

Blogs are not open season for people to be disrespectful. Bloggers should not be expected to keep explaining themselves, or tolerating trolling, no matter how manipulative, or covert the trolling.

I respect other bloggers, and I expect that respect in return.




Tears, watching Dr.Phil talk to narcissist mothers.

Watching Dr. Phil and the episode is about narcissistic mothers. He even recommended a book that is on my website as a book recommendations.

This book is… “Will I Ever Be Good Enough?: Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers’ by Dr. Karyl McBride Ph.D. (Author) See @ http://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/#!book-recommedationsresources/cnqp

Before Dr. Phil confirmed these women are narcissists, I had already worked out that is what they are. I know the traits, all too well. My mother is a narcissist, with sociopath traits. That is why she wanted me sexually abused and was complicit in the abuse. And also abused me in every other way too. – emotional, mental, psychological, verbal etc.

One of the women on this show, was abused herself as a child, and abandoned by her mother. Both her mother and father, were abusive. Dr Phil, talked about the abusive behaviours continuing on into the next generation.

I do realise my mother most likely endured trauma in her own childhood. I know she said her father died when she was 14 and her mother was described as cold and uncaring. Whether any of that it true or not, I don’t know. My mother cannot be trusted to tell the truth about anything. But, I realise her personality disorder, was likely caused by her own childhood trauma, whatever that was.

Dr Phil confirmed these 2 women were abusing their daughters – emotionally, physically, mentally, psychologically. He did not shy away from telling them they are narcissists and abusive. He also showed compassion for these women and what they had endured.

I do have sympathy for my mother. I do wonder whether she was sexually abused in her own childhood Continue reading