Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Grieving the whole of my lifetime, affected by child abuse.


I am a realist and honest with myself. Every part of my life, has been affected by the child abuse I endured. That is my reality.

There is not a single area of my life, that has not been impacted..

It is overwhelming at times. It’s more than I can cope with sometimes. I’m overwhelmed by sadness.

For all that should never have been, but was.

For all I never had, but should have had.

It’s so much to grieve.

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “Grieving the whole of my lifetime, affected by child abuse.

  1. I’m so sorry. I feel this with you.

    • I’m sorry you feel this too. I don’t want anyone to have to be going through this.
      I think it is needed to acknowledge how much the abuse and trauma have affected our lives, as we cannot heal what we don’t acknowledge.
      It takes a lot of courage to acknowledge it all.
      I know it is a long term process, to heal and grieve.
      I hope you are okay.
      ❤ ❤

  2. I tell myself to get over it, but it has me by the ankles.. Its as if my brain has no brakes on the thoughts.

  3. We can manage is all. We can understand it, accept it, but still nothing fills the void of what should have been there. I feel for your pain, for you, for what you should not have gone through and for what was stolen from you. Accepting it all, with God’s love does make us whole, most of the time, but not at the holiday time.

  4. Thinking of you. I believe that the negative situations I have been in in the past have shaped me into a much more sympathetic, empathetic person. christinadrh is right, we can manage is all. Sending you hugs x