My children started back at school today, after 6 weeks of the summer holidays. My children enjoyed their holidays. We did lots of great stuff, they had lots of fun, and some rest, which I believe is necessary.
I have enjoyed the school holidays too………. but I have also missed having regular peace and quiet during the day. I am aware not to feel guilty about this.
My children had a great school holidays and they need to go to school. And I have PTSD, so I have an increased need for time alone and avoiding stress. And even the increased noise of children – increases my PTSD symptoms. Which I managed really well, throughout the 6 weeks.
So today, I am trying to not to allow myself to feel guilty about enjoying the peace and quiet. I’m not going to tell myself that I am a bad mother, for being absolutely okay with my children being back in school.
I will not feel guilty.
I will try not to feel guilty.
I do feel a little guilty.
Okay… I will try to be okay with knowing on one level there is no need to feel guilty….. whilst acknowledging I still do a little. And this is something I need to work on, that takes time.
I will keep telling myself, I am not a bad mother, for being okay with my children being back in school, and enjoying the peace and quiet.
If I tell myself enough times………. I will hopefully truly believe it.