Having PTSD, means I have noise sensitivity issues. I struggle with high pitched, repetitive & competing noise. It worsens throughout the day, and on bad days, this sensitivity, is severe.
Being a parent with PTSD, is not easy at all. Being a parent itself, is a tough gig for anyone. Having PTSD makes it harder. But, I manage it well and know when I am becoming overwhelmed and how to manage all the symptoms and stress.
I have never liked recorders. They have a horrible pitch/noise and listening to children attempting to play them and constantly making mistakes……. is a PTSD noise sensitivity nightmare!
I posted this meme to my personal facebook and a mother I know from my 6 year olds school, responded to say the kids leave the recorders in school. I replied “thank God for that, I hate recorders!”.
I forget sometimes, just how hard a gig parenting with PTSD is. I should give myself more self compassion about this. I am too hard on myself I think, when it comes to parenting, because I am so aware of how important childhood is, to the adult a child becomes. And I want all my children’s needs met. And I know the consequences, of a child not having a good enough childhood.
But, one thing I can have most of the time, is a sense of humour. Which I am aware, is emotional maturity. Some days, nothing is funny or humorous, but often I can see the humour in situations. It helps to get through this tough and emotional journey.
I think my life would have been even worse, without a sense of humour.