I was suicidal yesterday, so I knew I had to go to the hospital.
Had to talk to 4 different people, the last one being a psychiatrist, who suggested I have follow up mental health services. People phoning me and a home visit.
He suggested I change my medications, as the one I’m on he feels isn’t strong enough. So advised me to go back on Mirtazapine and gave me a script for it.
I also have to go back to the hospital, on Thursday.
He was really nice to me, and told me how brave I am to be dealing with my severe childhood trauma, in counselling. And that many people don’t deal with it. But, whilst it feels horrendous now and that is normal, it is better to deal with it, for the future.
He also said it is normal for it to all become overwhelming at times, especially when I also have issues going on at home, which I had also told him about.
Going to rest today, because I am exhausted.