Counselling homework… What I am/am not.

March 8, 2016 by Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

Several weeks ago, we started art therapy. The issues that have needed to be dealt with, over the last few weeks, have side-tracked this art therapy. But, I said today, I do want to get back to that. And my counsellor, was encouraging of this.

I also said tomorrow, I am having a whole day off social media and blogging, and have a day creating a collage of the fab family pictures I have of my 7 year old’s Birthday at the zoo. She was very encouraging of this too and asked to see photo’s when I’ve finished it. She is a great believer in creativity helping people to deal with, process trauma. And for general wellbeing, for everyone. She is creative and does a lot of patchwork/sewing.

So, now we are back to doing the art therapy, I have to think about a list of things I am, and things I am not.

This is hard for me. I know I am considered brave, honest, intelligent, insightful, not your average person  …. but after that, it gets a little difficult.

I have heard a lot of people give me their opinions of who I am. Good, bad and ugly opinions. And it’s always easier for me to believe the bad things, than the good.

I have issues still, due to my childhood… where unless I am really amazing at something…. it’s not ‘good enough’. And I feel like I need to do better.

Compiling this list, is not easy. It sounds easy. But, actually writing it, is a real challenge. And I know that is exactly why my counsellor is getting me to do this.

But, at least I know a few things I can write on the ‘I am not’ list. And that’s demonic. And not on ‘the dark side’. Which I can giggle at now, after the recent huge issues over this. My counsellor will understand, why writing these – is a big deal.