I realise I get ‘crazier’ to some people. And it’s a positive.

March 30, 2016 by Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am aware I have always been ‘different’ to your average person, who has experienced a more average life. I’ve been described as ‘different’ in many ways. ‘Kooky’, ‘quirky’, ‘crazy’ etc. And I now I accept I am different. Not better than anyone. But different.

One of the greatest flaws in humanity, is the general incapacity to accept anything that is not personally understood. And the way most people deal with this….. is to reject and dismiss, mock and invalidate….. as per the need many have to remain ignorant, unwise and lacking in insight. And it is a choice.

Many people, also cannot bear to be ‘wrong’. The human perilous ego.

So, I have also accepted I continue to grow in my differences to many. But, this is down to my wider life experiences, my capacity to learn, be wrong, have insight and self honesty.

For those that consider this makes me ‘more crazy’ – so be it. To those who remain unconscious, it is easier to reject those seeking more conscious awareness.

There are very few people who’s opinion of me, I choose to listen to, or consider.

The blind will remain blind. And those who are ‘seeing’, cannot never go back to being blind.

I am learning to accept my strengths, not downplay them and be okay with them. It takes a lot of courage and inner strength, to want to seek wisdom and to learn and grow.