My counsellor is away. I always struggle whenever she is away. Something I feel embarrassed to admit, but is true. I know that’s normal and okay, in a therapy relationship. A therapy relationship, is like no other.
I really want to talk to her about my book, how I’m feeling. I miss her. I miss hearing her say things that make me think. I miss being able to ask her advice, run past ideas and my discuss my thinking and emotions. I miss having that weekly regular time.
It’s weird to miss someone, who no doubt doesn’t think about you at all, outside of the therapy room.
In fact, the more I think about that, the more anxiety I am getting.
It’s all too familiar in my life. One way relationships, where you care about someone, and they don’t care back.
Now I just want to cry.