It’s my mothers Birthday today. And mothers day tomorrow.
Can I just go to sleep and wake on Monday please?
It’s amazing how much I can put on an okay front, around my children. Which I always do, particularly on Mothers Day. There will be smiles and hugs and excitement as I show my children what they are needing, on Mothers Day.
But inside, I’m just dying a little more.
Doesn’t help that I have issues going on with my counsellor, and I can’t rely on her support either.
When dealing with childhood complex trauma, counsellors become like a parent figure and help the client learn all the things they weren’t modelled, told etc…. Their job is to re-parent.
So, it feels like an added betrayal, to see the same issues of failing to keep children safe from predators, echoed between my actual mother and my counsellor.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario