Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I don’t belong here.


don;t belong here

I’ve never belonged here.

Since I was a child, I have known this.

Now I just understand this more.

This world is crazy.

I don’t belong here.

I belong where I’m going.

I know too much.

I feel too much.

I see too much.

I understand too much.

And I wish I didn’t.

But you cannot un-open your eyes, once they have been opened.

You cannot ‘un-understand’ what you now comprehend.

Once you know, feel and see too much, you’re screwed.

I don’t want to be here.

I don’t belong here.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario




Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle.

3 thoughts on “I don’t belong here.

  1. I can relate to your words so much! A sensitive, empathetic soul definetely feels too much and gets overwhelmed with the cruelty of others.

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