Often people feel their ‘negative’ emotions, are wrong, bad, weak. This is wrong. Emotions are valid, needed and without expressing them, we do not heal.
I am currently grieving the loss of a significant relationship. One I did not think would end for a long time yet.. But one, with reflection, I can see was going to end. And in the way it has.
I am feeling that loss. In the deep and painful way, I always feel loss, grieving, abandonment, hurt.
I have finally got to that place, where I no longer feel weak, for having these intense emotions. They are part of who I am. They are why I am empathic. They are why I care so much and they motivate me to try to help others.
My intense emotions, are not weakness. I don’t hurt anyone when I feel them. I don’t hold onto them indefinitely.
But, I honor my capacity to feel emotions deeply.
They are a strength, not a weakness.
So, I have learned to accept them and not push them down or away.I have learned to feel them.
I have learned when I feel I would rather be dead, this is simply a way I cope due to the severity of my trauma history. No-one would want to endure anymore trauma, following decades of suffering.
I have learned to have self care, while these deep emotions are being felt.
I am allowed to grieve the loss of a significant relationships. I am allowed to feel hurt, abandoned and cry.
I am allowed to let this grieving period, take as long as it takes.
I know I’ll survive this. I always do.
My record for surviving pain, suffering, loss and trauma…. is 100%.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario
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