Earlier, I was sitting in my car, before school pick up. Tears pouring down my face, listening to this song. I forced myself to get my shit together and stop crying. I’ve been at this place, so many times. Having to pull myself together, so my children don’t see me so upset.
I put on my sunglasses (thank God for sunglasses) and walked into the school grounds, staying away from all the other parents. Hoping no-one would talk to me. A little girl of one of the mothers I know came over and talked to me. I forced myself to smile and chat about her lovely mermaid dolly.
A few minutes later the bell rang and my son came out. By then I was okay and he would never know that only minutes ago I was crying.
When you have children, you have to smile through the pain.