Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I think it’s time for me to end counselling ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

I realise there comes a point when counselling needs to end. And I do believe I have come to the end of needing this counselling. For many reasons. Good and not good – which I don’t feel the need to explain, or defend.

My counsellor is away now for 3 weeks. So, this will give me time to adjust to not having or needing therapy.

It will be hard, ending a therapy relationship of nearly 5 years. But, I am aware it would need to happen at some point. And there is a part of me, that needs that to be my choice/decision.

I’ve had so many choices taken away from me all through my life, that I need to make important choices for myself. And I realise I am also wanting to avoid any feeling of abandonment, or rejection, which I know will always be there under the surface, even though I can manage this better.

I have things now in place – like my photography course, to take my mind of any sadness, or grieving I will feel. Often when something is happening in my life, the first person I think of to tell, is my counsellor. And I need to end that now.

I need to rely on and trust only me. And everyone else be a part of my life, out of choice, but not because I depend on them. I want my complete independence back, where I need to rely on no-one. Continue reading


My folio and application were accepted for the photography course :D

I am SO happy to know my application was accepted!

I am so excited to start a new part of my life, and it be something so nice, lovely, healthy, fun, creative and a passion of mine.

This is all part of my journey and my healing. Finding an area of life – not about trauma, not about abuse, not about anything horrible.

I am so thankful to have been accepted, because I really did not believe my 15 photos needed in my folio, would be good enough.

But, they are good enough! Continue reading