Since I first listened to this song, I have been emotional every time. It is my inner child song. It has great personal meaning for me.
Today, is the first time I have ever listened to this and not been emotional. It is actually something I should probably be worried about, because I know myself well. I always cry when I listen to this. No matter whether in a good, bad or ugly place.
Which I do know, is because I have shut down emotionally. It’s like a switch just got turned off.
I am at a place where I just cannot do emotions anymore. I don’t know if this is dissociation, or something else. But, it is not something I have experienced before.
Maybe it’s normal. Maybe this is what non PTSD people feel. It does feel easier than feeling emotions.
So for now, I’m good with it.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario
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