Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

First time I have listened to this sing, and not been emotional. Which I should probably be concerned about.


Since I first listened to this song, I have been emotional every time. It is my inner child  song. It has great personal meaning for me.

Today, is the first time I have ever listened to this and not been emotional. It is actually something I should probably be worried about, because I know myself well. I always cry when I listen to this. No matter whether in a good, bad or ugly place.

Which I do know, is because I have shut down emotionally. It’s like a switch just got turned off.

I am at a place where I just cannot do emotions anymore. I don’t know if this is dissociation, or something else. But, it is not something I have experienced before.

Maybe it’s normal. Maybe this is what non PTSD people feel. It does feel easier than feeling emotions.

So for now, I’m good with it.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

4 thoughts on “First time I have listened to this sing, and not been emotional. Which I should probably be concerned about.

  1. This one helps my inner child feel comforted by my grown up self. It’s a cover of a song by Sia. Same original artist of the song you wrote about. Maybe it will help. https://youtu.be/Xa9FJwYtUnQ

  2. This one makes me think of inner child and adult self connected at last. https://youtu.be/3QDwW6ZE7v0

  3. It was a truly touching song. So full of emotion. Thanks for sharing it.