2017, will be an interesting year. It is certainly not going to start the way I assumed it would. But, that’s life – you cannot predict what will happen. You can only accept what comes and have the resilience to withstand it and make the best of it.
I have made no secret of my faith issues. I am at a point, where I cannot think about it anymore, because it’s too painful. There is no resolving of the issues I feel. So, for now, I am avoiding thinking about it.
My counselling, has ended in a sad way, but….. I am great believer in people revealing who they truly are, in time. And I don’t need counselling anymore.
2017, will be a year – where I learn how to become a professional photographer, get m book finished and published. That’s a lot for me, and will take me out of my current comfort zone.
But, if there’s one thing I am – beyond any doubt – is a survivor. I am stronger now, than I have been over the last 5 years. My resilience levels are stronger. My boundaries are safer and my self esteem is higher, than ever before.
I know I will become a good photographer. I already have a blog, with over 500 views in less than a week, and professional photographers encouraging my work. And I don’t even know what I am doing yet. I am simply relying on the quality of the camera at the moment.
But, I will learn a lot about photography and I am aware you need qualifications, to legitimately call yourself a professional photographer. And I want to provide people with true quality photos, that do require learning about it from professionals.
I am determined to create the life for myself, I deserved all long, and never had. I will make more connections with people with shared passions, keep my ladies group going – which is going so well, and most importantly – take care of my beautiful children and continue to teach and model compassion, resilience, self worth, love, empathy and help them become the adults they will be.
2017 – will be the year I also concentrate on me and what I need to do, to gain back my independence, not have to rely on a single person and gain the satisfaction of doing this by myself.
All my life, I have been the only person (other than my children) – who cares about me, and my best interests.
And that’s okay….. because I will continue to be that. And have a good life.
Whilst there are sad things ending in 2016………… there is a lot of good coming in 2017 – and I am looking forward to it.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario
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