Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.


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I don’t want to do this anymore.

I know when I’m not doing okay, because I can’t eat, all my PTSD symptoms increase, I get suicidal thoughts, I wish I could not be here.

I’m aware the situation of my counselling ending so badly, is trauma. I have been re-traumatised and emotionally abused by her, and this has impacted me greatly. Even though I tried hard to not let it affect me.

This, plus issues in my marriage increasing, are overwhelming.

I’ve also had to cancel doing my photography course, because I have found out this week – the Government funding has reduced and I cannot afford to pay for the course.

Plus, I have issues about my faith.

It’s too much.

And I have no-one to talk to.

It feels like my whole life is falling apart and there is nothing I can do to sort it out.

I tried to be really strong about all this, and realise my counsellors and husband issues are actually nothing to do with me – it’s their issues. But, the fact is – it does impact me. I can’t just turn off those strong emotions indefinitely. Continue reading