Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

I have reasons to be alive, but I wish I was dead.


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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “I have reasons to be alive, but I wish I was dead.

  1. Hang in there, Lilly. There are people out here in Internet-land who love you and your most helpful website. Listen to our words of comfort, and we’ll help you get through this.

  2. I am sorry you feel bad at the moment. I am sending gentle, encouraging thoughts your way. I too have had wobbles but kindness from others helped. ❤

  3. I felt that way for years, my heart goes out to you. Love, GailMarie

  4. You are far from alone. Sharing your life stories with others has given them the gift of strength, courage and hope. You deserve that much more than you realize right now. Hang in there, baby.

  5. Thank you so much everyone ❤ ❤

    I really appreciate your support, kindness and messages. I am trying to allow myself needed grieving and emotions. But, working hard on not giving up completely.

    I am forcing myself to focus on my children and taking lots of photos of them – which keeps me grounded. My children love me and need me and I have to keep going for them. They deserve that.