This meme really made me stop and think. And it’s true. And it’s made me think even more than is mentioned in this meme.
I’ve been grieving all my life. Because the people in my life, were unable/unwilling to give love. They were people who used and abused. And whilst you try to give love to them, it isn’t treated well. And you don’t receive any love back.
I’ve been grieving all my life. I’m still grieving. Grieving my mother. My birth father who I have never met. My step father. My sisters. People I have loved in various relationships. Even now, I am grieving my marriage, my ex counsellor.
All the emotions, love and caring……. with nowhere to go.
It’s hard grieving people who are still alive.
It’s hard grieving an entire life.
But, that is what I am doing. And grieving involves many emotions. And grieving such heinous abuse, such neglect, such abandonment, such callous treatment, such pain…….. does not have a timespan.
And there is nothing you can do. Except try to suppress it. But, I don’t – because I know that only makes life worse.
So, I will feel all the emotions needed.
Because, I have no other choice.
~ Lilly Hope Lucario
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December 30, 2016 at 9:59 pm
Please find a good enough psychologist; you cannot carry such a heavy load by yourself.
❤ ❤ ❤
December 30, 2016 at 11:35 pm
Yes it is awful grieving an entire life and for grief to be a constant companion, it’s suffocating. I understand this.
December 31, 2016 at 3:53 am
Amazing!!!
December 31, 2016 at 11:47 am
It has been painful for me to realize that my own parents and siblings are not safe for me to love.
So I grieve never having had safe people to love.