I am exhausted. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically.
Worn down every day due to living with a toxic person.
Totally alone. No-one to talk to.
PTSD symptoms, are all pretty bad. Having horrible dreams most nights. Anxiety high. Dizziness and arm seizures, occurring frequently. Back, shoulder and neck pain pretty bad.
I truly wish I could die.
I can’t because I have children, who need me. And that adds to my exhaustion. The constant need to pretend to be okay around them. Feeling like a failure when I can’t summon the energy needed to pretend.
I’ve had too much pain and suffering in my life.
I just want it to end.