Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

12 Life Impacting Symptoms – Complex PTSD Survivors Can Endure ~ Lilly Hope Lucario



Complex trauma is still a relatively new field of psychology. Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, results from enduring complex trauma.

Complex trauma is ongoing or repeated interpersonal trauma, where the victim is traumatised in captivity, and where there is no perceived way to escape. Ongoing child abuse, is captivity abuse, because the child cannot escape. Domestic violence, is another example. Enforced prostitution/sex trafficking is another.

Complex PTSD is a proposed disorder, which is different to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  Many of the issues and symptoms endured by complex trauma survivors, are outside of the list of symptoms within the (Uncomplicated) PTSD diagnostic criterion. Complex PTSD does acknowledge and validate these added symptoms.



The impact of complex trauma, is very different to a one time or short lived trauma. The effect of repeated/ongoing trauma – caused by people – changes the brain, and also changes the survivor at a core level.  It changes the way survivors view the world, other people and themselves, in profound ways.

The following are some of the symptoms and impact, most felt by complex trauma survivors.

1. Deep Fear Of Trust

People who endure ongoing abuse, particularly from significant people in their lives, develop an intense, and understandable fear of trusting people. If the abuse was parents, or caregivers, this intensifies. Ongoing trauma, wires the brain for fear and distrust. It becomes the way the brain copes with any further potential abuse. Complex trauma survivors often find trusting people very difficult, and it takes little for any trust built, to be destroyed. The brain senses issues and this overwhelms the already severely traumatised brain. This fear of trust, is very impacting in a survivors life. Learning to trust, can be learned, with support and an understanding of trusting people slowly and carefully.

2. Terminal Aloneness

This is a phrase I used to describe to my counsellor, the terribly painful aloneness I have always felt as a complex trauma survivor. Survivors often feel so little connection and trust with people, they remain in a terrible state of aloneness, even when surrounded by people. I described it once, as having a glass wall between myself and other people. I can see them, but I cannot connect with them.

Another issue that increases this aloneness, is feeling different to other people. Feeling damaged, broken and feeling unable to be like other people, can haunt a survivor, increasing the loneliness.

3. Emotion Regulation

Intense emotions are common with complex trauma survivors. It is understandable, that ongoing abuse, can cause many different and intense emotions. This is normal for complex trauma survivors.

Learning to manage and regulate emotions, is vital in being able to manage all the other symptoms.

4. Emotional flashbacks

Flashbacks are something all PTSD survivors can deal with, and there are three types…

Visual Flashbacks – where your mind is triggered and transported back to the trauma and you feel as though you are reliving it.

Somatic Flashbacks – where the survivor feels sensations, pain and discomfort in areas of the body, effected by the trauma. This pain/sensations, cannot be explained by any other health issues, and are triggered by something, that creates the body to ‘feel’ the trauma again.

Emotional Flashbacks – are the least known and understood and yet the type complex trauma survivors can experience the most. These are where emotions from the past, are triggered. Often the survivor does not understand these intense emotions are flashbacks, and it appears the survivor is being irrationally emotional. When I learned about emotional flashbacks, it was a huge light-bulb moment of finally understanding why I have intense emotions, when they do not reflect the issue occurring now. But, in fact, are emotions felt during the trauma, being triggered. But, there is no visual of the trauma – as with visual flashbacks. So it takes a lot of work, to start to understand when experiencing an emotional flashback.

For more info about emotional flashbacks see my article @ https://healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.wordpress.com/2016/06/22/emotional-flashbacks-due-to-complex-trauma-lilly-hope-lucario/

5. Hyper-vigilance About People

Most people with PTSD, have hyper-vigilance, where the person scans the environment for potential risks, and likes to have their back to the wall.

But, complex trauma survivors often have a deep subconscious need to ‘work people out’. Since childhood, I have been aware of people’s non verbal cues… their body language, their tone of voice, their facial expressions. I also subconsciously learn people’s habits and store away what they say. Then if anything occurs that contradicts any of this, it will immediately flag as something potentially dangerous.

This can be exhausting. And it can create a deep skillset of discernment about people. The aim of healing fear based hyper-vigilance, is turning it into non fear based discernment.

6. Loss Of Faith

Complex trauma survivors often endure a loss of faith. And this can be about people, about the world being good, about religion, and a loss of faith about self.

Complex trauma survivors often view the world as dangerous, and people as all potentially abusive. Which is understandable when having endured ongoing severe abuse.

Many complex trauma survivors walk away from their religious beliefs. To believe in a e.g. a good and loving God – who allows suffering and heinous abuse to occur, can feel like the ultimate betrayal. This is something needing considerable compassion.

7. Profoundly Hurt Inner Child

Childhood complex trauma survivors, often have a very hurt inner child, that continues on to affect the survivor in adulthood. When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. A survivor will often continue on subconsciously wanting those unmet childhood needs – in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished, and loved, can often be normal needs in childhood, that were not met, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counselling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.

Inner child healing can be very healing for childhood abuse survivors. It is where the survivor begins to meet the needs of their hurt and wounded child, themselves. I have further info about this on my Website @ https://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/inner-child-healing

8. Helplessness & Toxic Shame

Due to enduring ongoing or repeated abuse, the survivor can develop a sense of hopelessness, that nothing will ever be okay. They can feel so profoundly damaged, they see no hope for anything to get better. When faced with long periods of abuse, it does feel there is no hope of anything changing. And even when the abuse/trauma stops, the survivor can continue on having these deep core level beliefs of hopelessness. This is intensified by the terribly life impacting symptoms of Complex PTSD. That keep the survivor stuck with the trauma, with little hope of this easing.

Toxic shame is a common issue survivors of complex trauma endure. Often the perpetrators of the abuse, make the survivor feel they deserved the abuse, or they were the reason or the abuse. Often survivors are made to feel they don’t deserve to be treated any better.

Sexual abuse, can create a whole added layer of toxic shame, which requires very specific and compassionate therapy, if this is accessible. Often sexual abuse survivors who are repeatedly enduring this heinous abuse, develop feelings of being dirty, damaged and disgusting, when their bodies are violated in this way.

9. Repeated Search For A Rescuer

Subconsciously looking for someone to rescue them, is something many survivors understandably think about during the ongoing trauma and this can continue on, after the trauma has ceased. The survivor can feel helpless and yearn for someone to come and rescue them from the pain they feel and want them to make their lives better. This sadly often leads to the survivor seeking out the wrong types of people, and being re-traumatised repeatedly.

10. Dissociation

When enduring ongoing abuse, the brain can utilise dissociation, as a coping method. This can be from daydreaming, to more life impacting forms of dissociation – such as Dissociative Identity Disorder. This is particularly experienced by child abuse survivors, who are emotionally unable to cope with trauma in the same way an adult can.

For more information about the different types of dissociation, see my Website @ https://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/dissociation

11. Persistent Sadness & Being Suicidal   

Complex trauma survivors often experience ongoing states of sadness and severe depression. Mood disorders are often co-morbid with Complex PTSD.

Complex trauma survivors, are very high risk for suicidal thoughts, suicide ideation and being actively suicidal. Suicide ideation, can become a way of coping, where the survivor feels like they have a way to end the severe pain, if it becomes any worse. Often the deep emotional pain survivors feel, can feel unbearable. This is when survivors are at risk of developing suicidal thoughts.

For more information about suicidal issues, see my Website @ https://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/self-harm-suicidal-thoughts

12. Muscle Amoring

Many complex trauma survivors, who have experienced ongoing abuse, develop body hyper- vigilance. This is where the body is continually tensed, as though the body is ‘braced’ for potential trauma. This leads to pain issues, as the muscles are being overworked. Chronic pain and other issues related such as Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia can result.  Massage, guided muscle relaxation and other ways to manage this, can help.

All of these issues, are very normal for complex trauma survivors. Enduring complex trauma is not a normal life experience, and therefore, the consequences if creates are different, yet very normal for what they have suffered and endured.

Not every survivor will endure all these, and there are other symptoms that can be endured.

I always suggest trauma informed counselling, if that is accessible. There are medications available to help with symptoms such as anxiety and depression.

There are also many self help strategies to manage the symptoms and help heal.

Many of these are listed on my Website @ https://www.healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd.com/

Lastly, I advise that empathy, gentleness and compassion

are required for complex trauma survivors.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario – (Severe and multiple complex trauma survivor).

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

22 thoughts on “12 Life Impacting Symptoms – Complex PTSD Survivors Can Endure ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. Thank you Lilly Hope Lucario… this is a wonderful Post. “empathy, gentleness and compassion
    are required for complex trauma survivors.” This works for me when I am too hard on myself or others.

  2. Thank you for this post. I appreciate all your writings about complex trauma.

  3. Thanks for sharing. Some of this is new info for me but makes so much sense.

  4. Thank you. This has opened my eyes about what I’m going through personally.

  5. This post really helped me understand why i think and feel the way i do now.. and helped me see how many symptoms i really am dealing with…thanks lily

  6. Very well written and so helpful!!!

    Thank you!

  7. Perfect to send to friends and family to help educate them, thank you!

  8. Thank you so much for this website and in particular this post. I never knew about Complex PTSD until I found your website. And it explained me so well I couldn’t believe it! I’ve been in therapy for 18 months and when I found your site I printed out reams of paper to show to my therapist who had never mentioned Complex PTSD to me but immediately said I knew you had this but wasn’t sure you could handle my telling you. This post right here is amazing. Sadly it explains a lot but that’s helpful to me. I’d rather know why I’m feeling the way I do so that I can eventually deal with it, it gives me hope. Thank you for all you do!

  9. Thank you for your very informative blog covering the work I have also been doing in the past 10 years. I have shared it in my FB group, Healing Soul Wounds -CPTSD and PTSD.
    Bravo Caryl

  10. thank you so much for all of your articles. It really helps to know that there is a scientific reason for all of my symptoms and that others experience them too.

  11. “Enduring complex trauma is not a normal life experience”.

    I started off with that normal life experience thing until I was 9 and then it all began to go weird. Around 20 the glass wall thingy kicked in and I went permanently numb. I had no control over the numbing and dissociation process. It was very strange.

    That was nearly 40 years ago. Hospitalized for severe depression in ’85 and ’03. But my 9 year old remembers how good life was. His sparkle is still in my eye and that’s why I’ve never given up.

  12. I’ve always wanted someone to rescue me. I’ve not known that that was a result of what I have experienced.

    For some reason, seeing that gives me validation.

    Thank you!!

  13. Well, this made everything come together for me…

  14. Hi Lilly. I was researching at work this morning and came across your blog. It’s full of powerful, helpful information. Today I’m finding hope from your description of the feeling Terminal Aloneness. Thank you for sharing your empowering wisdom. I look forward to reading more if your work.

  15. I was in an extremely abusive marriage for 4 years. The constant screaming and name calling before I got out of it I believe damaged me. I can relate to many of these symptoms. Fear of relationships, being alone etc… I guess I should see someone so I can get fixed.

  16. Reblogged this on letsdeclare.wordpress.com and commented:
    Introductory – this blog, extremly helpful!
    Including it to my recovery💪.📚📃

  17. Thank you, from one survivor to another thank you 😊 x

  18. These are issues that affected my life for a long time & nothing seemed to help. I’ve been in therapy for 1.5 yrs this time & understanding how the healing process takes place is extremely valuable knowledge.

  19. This post was so helpful and informative for me, having recently been diagnosed (finally) with Complex PTSD. So much of this now makes so much sense to me. I appreciate, personally, the time you took to post this, sharing your experiences and such helpful information.

  20. So infinitely grateful for this info. Where can I join a online support group about this?