Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

Facing My Fear Of Public Speaking ~ Lilly Hope Lucario


My counsellor, who is also a GP, has asked me to consider speaking to a group of 20 young doctors about my experiences with trauma. This is to help – GP’s help their patients in a more appropriate way.

My immediate reaction – OH MY GOD NO……….. !!!! I hate speaking in groups of people, and especially people I don’t know!!!

Arrrgggghhhhhh! :O :O :O :O :O

I do know my counsellor would not ask me, if she didn’t think I could this. And she has made it very clear I can say no. And I know this is an opportunity to show that complex trauma survivors, can indeed be intelligent, have insight, and are not ‘crazy’. It’s an opportunity to help raise awareness about Complex PTSD and how many people are enduring this, many of whom don’t even realise they have this. And to talk about what helps us, and what hinders us.

But, whilst I truly feel massive anxiety at the thought of doing this…. it would be good for two reasons… it would help doctors be more trauma informed….. and it would make me face my fear of public speaking.

So, I think I am going to say yes………. and hope I don’t screw up and embarrass myself…. and embarrass my counsellor.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle.

8 thoughts on “Facing My Fear Of Public Speaking ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. I understand the feelings before public speaking! EEEEK If you write down what you’d like to say & remember what you can so that you are not reading it all, that would be helpful. The last time I spoke in public was before a group of survivors in April & the title of my presentation was: “I was a crime scene…& the life that followed was not the life I had planned.” I also presented some images from my drawing books of portraits from a baby to toddlers to elementary & early teens to show their expressions on their faces before they had been abused. Then I showed some women, men, & children survivor faces who were sad or crying or in great distress.

  2. BTW, I hope you have addressed the hugs, touches re: your counselor & how that would be all right to do…otherwise, you may feel inward resentment or uncomfortableness in your subconscious. I just think you certainly deserve to be hugged! 🙂

  3. Brilliant!

    Brilliant for u, Lilly personally, in your own healing journey & also informing the next generation of medics about CPTSD – a form of human suffering that is so often not recognised & treated appropriately within the medical profession.

    U “go girl go”!

  4. Thank you all, I really do feel this an opportunity to do much good and I just hope I can get through it without too much anxiety.
    I told my counsellor I would do it, and I have an appointment with her, before this talk with the GP’s.
    I think it will be okay.
    Lilly ❤

  5. Excellent! That is good news! Yes you will be anxious but afterwards the sense of achievement will be wonderful.
    I only learnt I have complex ptsd last Nov, well they diagnosed ptsd but I know it is cptsd.
    Your blogs confirm my symptoms and are reassuring that I am not going mad but it is all part and parcel. It makes living with ptsd better to hear of your experiences. I can treat that part of me more gently when it interferes with my life than I would have before I understood it.
    BTW I speak in public. Something I never thought in a trillion years I would do. I write, then I read it, and get good feedback. I still get nervous and have to encourage myself but I am amazed that I can do it. Once because I had severe anxiety about another issue I didn’t turn up to speak. Horrible horrible that was, but it is me. When I speak it is good. That is what matters. All the best for your talk, keep us posted!

  6. Do you have any calming supplements to take before the event? That might help you.

  7. Lilly, I have no doubt you will anxiety, but I also feel you will do just fine. Just keep in mind that YOU are the one with the knowledge here. You do this in your blog every day. You’ll rock it! Have faith in yourself. ❤

  8. You’re a Super Hero Lilly!
    You got this!

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