Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

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Exhausted – But Okay ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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This last two weeks, have been really hard. I found out my mother died and my in-laws are visiting. Two difficult issues.

Interestingly, both have been okay to deal with. I encouraged my husband to deal with his dysfunctional family issues, and own up to his parents, as not being the ‘golden child’ they believe he is. He told them a lot. Including all his lying and manipulating. And how he contributed to my breakdown 5 years ago. And about some of the stuff they have done that is not okay. That confrontation of their family issues, went surprisingly well.

My mother’s death, has been a strange issue to deal with. I think I’ve done all my grieving already. So, whilst I do feel really sad at times, I’m more sad for my mother and all she lost out in life, because she chose to be a toxic, abusive woman.

I’m exhausted though.

Like really tired, into the core of my being.

We went to a local zoo today, with my in-laws. It was a great day. But, so tiring. Good tiring.

And I’m okay with feeling this tired. I know I am dealing with a lot at the moment. I know I am coping well, and that is good, but there are effects of all this going on over the last few weeks.

I allow myself normal and natural feelings and effects. I know now, it is far healthier to feel them, and just go with it, than to feel shame, or try to suppress them.

I’m going to try to get back into my normal routine of yoga, Pilates, meditation and time to myself. But, if that takes a few weeks to get back into it, then that’s okay.

I’m so much better at this self care lifestyle now.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

One thought on “Exhausted – But Okay ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. Lilly, yes, it certainly is okay to be tired. You have taken great strides in healing these past weeks. I know your husband’s dysfunctional family is not yours but this greatly affects you, through him. It would be nice if all of you come together in a more stable healed relationship. Sending hugs and love your way.