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I Relate All Too Well – With Sinead O’Connor’s Painful Aloneness & Struggle Just To Stay Alive


This video is about being suicidal, so caution in viewing is required.


I couldn’t watch all of this. I sat with tears streaming down my face, at the pain I see in Sinead. Pain that I know all too well. I had to stop it halfway through, because the pain was overwhelming me. I hate to see such terrible pain in other people.

To feel like you have no-one except your doctor (or in my case my children) and feel no-one else cares about you, feel that alone, is more beyond my capacity to describe.

To have to live for someone else, but not want to live for yourself, I know well.

Sinead is very brave to record this and express how this feels.

I truly hope she is okay and I am glad to see further reports that she is being cared for. I hope that is true. I see the desperation and hopelessness within her and she truly needs someone to care. I fear the worst could happen, if genuine support is not there for her.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario



Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “I Relate All Too Well – With Sinead O’Connor’s Painful Aloneness & Struggle Just To Stay Alive

  1. This video is beyond heartbreaking and so so honest. Lilly, thank you for sharing this and raising awareness. During this year’s World Narcissistic Abuse Awareness Day Summit we interviewed a brilliant trauma-informed practitioner from Ireland. She shared with us how prevalent Narcissistic Mothers specifically, are in Ireland; how much abuse goes on without any recourse. To say this video is tragically accurate and an honest assessment of what many daughters and sons have endured-would be an understatement. Not only in Ireland, but globally. The horrific and sadistic way Sinead has been scapegoated, gaslit and blamed for her abuse and subsequent mental illness by members of her own family and their enablers is gut-wrenchingly painful and very familiar. Thank you again for sharing this, Lilly.

    • It is heartbreaking and I truly hope Sinead has the help and support she needs.
      As Sinead pointed out, there are millions of us who relate to this and feel suicidal and have little or no support.
      That breaks my heart too.
      It’s why I reach out and put my website together – for those who don’t have therapy or anyone who cares.
      I just do my little part in trying to help those suffering in this way.
      And I know you do the same Athena, so thank you!
      Lilly ❤ ❤ ❤

  2. I’m afraid to watch it as I’m afraid how it’ll affect me, but I can say you’re someone people need in their lives.

  3. I watched the video. I have no one, yes I have acquantices, don’t like myself at all, I relate to her loneliness