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Being someone heinously abused as a child – as part of my healing journey I have embraced inner child healing. I was never loved as a child – so now 'I' love my inner child. She is grieving – so this week I bought this unicorn ballerina 🦄🦄🦄 – Lilly Hope Lucario. 💟💟💟💟💟 . #innerchildhealing #innerchildwounds #ComplexPTSD #Complextrauma #childabuse #abuse #PTSD #CPTSD #healing #lillyhopelucario #healingfromcomplextraumaandptsd #childsexualabuse #emotionalabuse #psychologicalabuse . See my bio for the link to my website and there is the link to my award winning blog.
My inner child – is grieving.
My mother died and I recently realised I had to stop seeing my counsellor as a mother figure.
My mother dying has brought up a lot of horrible memories and emotions.
My inner child is having a very time over the stuff with my counsellor.
I feel like the 46 year old me – who is now grieving my entire life – is over everything and just wants to shut down and deal with everything alone.
And the inner child in me is desperately crying nooooooooooo….. don’t take away the only person who has acted in any way like a mother to me. I know my inner child wants to cling onto my counsellor with all her strength and might.
It’s all very confusing. And emotional. And painful.
It’s interesting – whenever I post about inner child healing, it always makes a powerful difference for others. Which is good. I know I risk ridicule and judgment when I post about having a terribly hurt inner child and buying soft toys etc. But, I share that very vulnerable part of me, because I know others feel the same pain and confusion I do. And when people see me doing my inner child stuff – it allows them to do the same with no fear of judgment from me.
I’ve only had my Instagram 2 months and I already have over 2000 followers, so I was unsure of the reaction I would receive about posting this pic of my unicorn. But, it received a really good reaction and in fact is the post with the most amount of comments.
It has a similar reaction on Twitter – with some people also feeling safe to post pics of their soft/plush toys that helps them.
I’m brave enough to post about my vulnerability, if it helps others.