Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

My Inner Child Is Grieving – So I Bought Her This Cute Ballerina Unicorn ~ Lilly Hope Lucario




My inner child – is grieving.

My mother died and I recently realised I had to stop seeing my counsellor as a mother figure.

My mother dying has brought up a lot of horrible memories and emotions.

My inner child is having a very time over the stuff with my counsellor.

I feel like the 46 year old me – who is now grieving my entire life – is over everything and just wants to shut down and deal with everything alone.

And the inner child in me is desperately crying nooooooooooo….. don’t take away the only person who has acted in any way like a mother to me. I know my inner child wants to cling onto my counsellor with all her strength and might.

It’s all very confusing. And emotional. And painful.

It’s interesting – whenever I post about inner child healing, it always makes a powerful difference for others. Which is good. I know I risk ridicule and judgment when I post about having a terribly hurt inner child and buying soft toys etc. But, I share that very vulnerable part of me, because I know others feel the same pain and confusion I do. And when people see me doing my inner child stuff – it allows them to do the same with no fear of judgment from me.

I’ve only had my Instagram 2 months and I already have over 2000 followers, so I was unsure of the reaction I would receive about posting this pic of my unicorn. But, it received a really good reaction and in fact is the post with the most amount of comments.

It has a similar reaction on Twitter – with some people also feeling safe to post pics of their soft/plush toys that helps them.

I’m brave enough to post about my vulnerability, if it helps others.

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

5 thoughts on “My Inner Child Is Grieving – So I Bought Her This Cute Ballerina Unicorn ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. I wish I could upload my photo of the baby doll I bought and dressed. She sits on my book shelf all smiling and innocent. Now when I need to reassure my inner child I speak to her.

  2. Lilly, she is a beautiful and adorable ballerina unicorn. Thank you sooo much for sharing this photo. I love that you share these vulnerable bits. I must admit it is refreshing to read and identify with you and with your little girl. I can see what you mean when you say these inner-child posts spark a discussion and an openness from your online ohana. πŸ’œ

    I too recently wandered the aisles of the toy section for hours with no agenda. I realized during my meandering-I had not been given the opportunity to do that… I was often rushed and hurried and forced to act like an adult (“the designated adult” is what I was often referred to), even from the very young age of 5 . How cathartic it was to browse and play and even load my shopping cart up full of toys and smell the dollies hair and read the children’s books and bounce balls and jump rope. I ended up only buying a small card game for my son and daughter-in-law… but how wonderful it was to just play.πŸ’œ

    Thank you as always! Athena

  3. My inner child has lots of company. She is surrounded by others who are grieving as well. To all I send my love and compasson!!