Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

A journey to healing from complex trauma.

First Sale For My New Business! ~ Lilly Hope Lucario


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I haven’t been blogging – for several reasons. One being that I felt like I had nothing positive to say. But, now I have something positive to blog about!

I’ve spend the last 12 months learning a new photography profession, with the aim to set up my own part time business. This leading towards my financial independence again.

Today I had my first sale! After only one week of my business up and running!

I cried. Tears of shock, joy and no doubt other emotions. I didn’t expect people to like my work as much as they clearly do. I didn’t expect people to want to pay me.

I could into all the complex trauma reasons why I put myself down and still don’t expect good reactions from people in my life. There is still fear, shame, low self esteem, my normal being people treating me like I am worthless……… and more. But, I don’t want to write about all that. I know I have those issues still. I’m working on them and okay that it will be a long process, after 46 years of abuse. It’s okay that I haven’t ‘fixed’ all that yet.

So, instead – I will focus on my success. My talent. Others recognising that. Others treating me like I am a person of worth. People giving me amazing feedback about my work and their whole experience with me.

It’s a huge step in the direction of where my life needs to head.

I also recognise how much courage and strength it has taken for me to do this, considering how traumatic 2017 was, and how ill I am.

I’m going to be okay with being a success. With being a person other people do value. 

It matters.

It really, really matters.

I forced myself to do this. I made myself do it. I kept on, even when I wanted to give up.

I gave myself hope.

I am proud of me!

~ Lilly Hope Lucario

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Author: Healing From Complex Trauma & PTSD/CPTSD

I am a survivor of complex and multiple trauma and abuse, who at the age of 40, began my healing journey. I am using my journey to recovery and healing, to help others, to help survivors feel less alone, validated, encouraged and to enable others to understand themselves more. Complex trauma, particularly from severe, prolonged childhood abuse, is profoundly life changing. Complex trauma produces complex adults. The journey to recovery is a painful, often lonely, emotional daily challenge and it is my aim to encourage others in their daily battle. ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

12 thoughts on “First Sale For My New Business! ~ Lilly Hope Lucario

  1. You should be proud of yourself, you accomplished do to things despite going through so much in your personal life…you are an amazingly strong person and I wish you all the best with your new business ❤

  2. So pleased for you, Lilly! That is wonderful news. I too am having to reassess my life and work towrds something that brings me worth and value in the midst of trauma. I have had many of the feelings you describe. It’s discouraging at the age of 51 to try and find this new energy to start again, but to survive, I need to make some changes, avoid certain people, and press into one of my creative gifts and really do something with it. You will be an inspiration to many in doing this. Can I ask where you are selling your photos? Is it on your own website or on one of the big sites that sells your photos for you like istock? I’d like to see what you are doing.

  3. Congratulations. You are a source of inspiration for me. I dream of starting my own business. I have to overcome my own shame and low self worth. Thank you for sharing the struggle.

  4. Congratulations!!!! Successes like that mean a lot. I wish you the best of luck. I’m hoping to have some sales next fall. I expect to have a couple of my light paintings ready for sale by then.

  5. Very proud of you Lilly, miss your blogs😊

  6. Congratulations, Lilly!!! Well deserved. *.*confetti*.*

  7. That’s so good to hear! I am so very happy for you. It’s about time. ❤️

  8. Thank you everyone! You are all so kind and thoughtful!
    It’s people like all of you who continue to remind me there are good people in this world.
    There are people with empathy and compassion.
    You all rock!!
    Lilly ❤💙💚💛💜

  9. Best news I’ve heard! That just warms my heart that you found your “second” calling. You do deserve happiness and freedom. I’m so very happy for you sweet Lilly. Love you! ❤

  10. I’m so happy you found something positive to focus on and I am so proud of you! I think you will gain confidence as time goes on and as much as I loved your posts I think it’s good to take a break and focus on things that bring you happiness ,and keep trying ,until you find it because you deserve it and you can’t be best mom unless your fulfilled ,your kids will be proud and notice too and that will heal you and them .Happy Valentines Day ! You are beautiful inside and out. Treat yourself to new hairdo or outfit ,it all helps ,God bless you.

  11. I want to learn more about your photography biz. Do you have a website?