Something I have realised, is I have no idea what a healthy relationship with a man looks like, or feels like.
Sad. But, true.
My intimate relationships have all been with abusive men.
I don’t know anything else.
My mother made sure I was truly fucked up by men since being a little child.
My first sexual ‘experience’ (I remember) was a paedophile and hard core porn at around 9 years old.
After that – it was abuse, abuse, abuse.
And all the self harm that goes with this – emotionally. sexually, physically is beyond painful.
And I know if I am enduring this – there will be more like me.
So if you are – please know I understand.
It’s horrific. And I’m not minimizing that for those who don’t choose the truth.
It’s truly horrific.